I think its fair to say i have neglected my livejournal account, i am quite surprised they havent deleted it. I havent been on here for at least a year, but perhaps that will all change now that i am in an office for a large percentage of the day and am consequently looking for an occasional 5 minutes of distraction.

I dont know if anyone even reads this anymore, but i shall post this just in case.

I can safely say that things are a bit easier and defiantly a lot more lovely. I have two jobs, a new flat, my fish, my snake and my lovely flatmate! heheheh. Hes like another pet as well :D

I spend my days either at university studying English Literature, at the office working as a Lettings Consultant or in a pub doing one of two things, either working or drinking ... as you do! I did a module on my english literature course that had me exploring Henry the 8th and his image and power and wives and weight issues etc, which means i now heart the Tudors, meaning i adore most things Tudor, especially the latest film 'The Other Boleyn Girl' but i refuse to watch that until  have read the book which Amazon kindly deposited on my doorstep this morning.

I am learning to drive as well .. (boooo) i have my theory test in a few short weeks and am starting lessons soon, they are so bloody expensive though :( but i have to get a car in order to do the sales part of the business i work for :D

My new exciting loves include, James McAvoy .. slurp and Nick Hoult from Skins.

Skins .. incidentally being a new addiction that i cannot stop watching, i think i am quite lucky though as i got into it on the first episode of series 2, so i had the joy of buying series one and bein able to watch it from start to finish without having to wait weeks inbetween hahahah.

Hope everyone is well, and i am sorry i have barely been in touch!

Love
<3

I have no idea what to write. I hate that, i sit there thinking that i want to update then just stare blankly at the screen.  I guess that either means life is just blank, or im too busy watching Spirited Away.

Last Saturday saw me dressed as a sixties chick and off to a party, photos underneath. It was for Jens 20th birthday, and it was awesome. I got very drunk, which was a bad idea .... but hey you have to let your hair down once in awhile. 

So as well as all of that, Claire and I had to battle the worlds BIGGEST SPIDER ... yesterday. It rolled out of my washing off the line and i nearly threw up. It was alike to this one!!


But in actual fact was this size ...



Argh just looking at it makes me shiver. I think i caught our heroic battle on video on my camera, but not much of it.

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DISGRACE!

Otherwise i havent been up to much, i didnt go to my Moulin Rouge party because its in Cardiff, and claire isnt very well so doesnt fancy the drive. Im not 100% of health either, so sleeping is a nicer option. 

My birthday wasnt too bad, i hated the fact that i turned twenty. I got a letter from Amy, she was writing obout when we were at school and the only worries we had was trying to stop Barry annying us, or working out chemistry while flicking through kerrang. All those easy days at School, we didnt realise A) how easy it was and B) how much fun. I mean mum always said that school was the best days of my life, but i neevr truuly thought i would ever want to go back through it again, but i do. I want to go back to school adn sit at our cafeteris table, i want to sit there singing with amy, singing stupid childish annoying songs while Ms. McDonna glares at us, and Mr.K puts us on yet another detention. It was so much fun just being young and not having a care in the world, wheras now ive got bloody uni, love, rent, all these things clogging up my mind, a job, money, goldfish, responsibility ... ahhh it fills my head!!!!
I miss school, more than i miss college, i miss Amy and how close we used to be. Sad really but i wouldnt change anything i have done. I love living in London.
Oy i am old. Hehehe.

Im going to give all of my attention to Spirited Away now .. because i ADORE it.
Hope you are all well....

Love ya
~
XxxxxX
 

Happy Birthday To Me! 

God.... turning twenty sucks!

Today i decided to behave. Get up early, go to a bank meeting and arrange my pathetic finances. Afterwards return home, do uni work, read poems then go to work.
That was the plan.

Instead i got up late, i dawdled to the bank but didnt actually make it inside because i bumped into will and greg and they MADE ME SHOP, we went to a toy shop to play around..... see pictures!

After that we got a subway and parted ways, i finally made it to the bank and did what i had to do, and now i am going to start on a pile of work that brings tears to my eyes.
All is well..... I might even be on time for work .. its happened before!!!

Talk soon
xxxxxxxxxxx

i am not incredibley pleased!
God all i do is moan on here, but tough. Noone else but the cyberpeople pretend to care.
I spent the whole day with Lennon who kindly put up my shelves, my curtain rail and curtains and then took me for dinner, which was lovely of him. I just wish he wouldnt act lovely, would it kill him to be a complete prick every now and agaib, i know he can do it all men can.
saying nice things doesnt help me forget him as a lover and accept him as a friend. Things like....

"i have an utmost respect for you, you know i do"

"I can never say no to you, i like to make you happy"

"You are one of my best friends, you know me better than anyone else"

Even things said in sarcasm like "Ahh you dont need that expensive dress, you beauty with make it look pale and ugly" even said sarcastically so i wouldbt buy it, he grinned and winked after saying it, then squeeezed me and walked off to look at stupid beanie hats with a stupoid cap. I hate those hats.
Why does he have to be so bloody nice when im STILL getting over what we could have had if he wanted me. I hate not being wanted. We even spoke intimately about my father who i havent spoken to in awhile for several reasons. I hate how easy he can be to confide in, yet love it becuase hes like a best friend. I wish somebody else who had fallen in love wiht somebody and was dismissed painfully by them woukd read these rants and understand what a nightmare i am living through. God.

I have to go to uni tomorrow .. URGGHHH that means getting up. Yawn.

Im not sure i want to be at uni anymore, i dont think i like it, but how do you tell that to friends and family?
Someone tell me?

My curtains are beautiful, as is rose wine.  

OKAY PICTURE FUN!

Thats all i have to offer really ....

More in a few days!!


ARGH ITS MY BIRTHDAY SOON! I DO NOT WANT TO TURN TWENTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

G'day possums!

Been a long time since ive updated, but life has been fast, and my internet slow ...
Im back in London in my own little house. Im still living with Jess and Claire in fact we have pushed our three way relationship to the next stage and got goldfish. They take up alot of our time with their constant aggresive staring competitions and attempts to dive from the bowl itself.
Im still working in the bloody pub, but im going to make a load of CVS today and then try and look for another job.

As i sit here ibn my pyjamas i need to go to kingston and buy some shelves before lennon gets here tomorrow to put them up, but i really cant be arsed.  In fact what i am going to do is get moving, have a shower, then go and look around chairty shops for awhile. Only then will i buy some dull shelves and then head home. Yes. I like that.
This plan needs to be put into action immediatley.

Talk to you soon XXXXXXXXX

Stolen from the lovely Dawneh.

IF YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST (and even if you're not!)
I want to know 28 things about you.I don't care if we've never talked, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my list (or not!), so let me know with whom I am friends with (or should/will be)!

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

1. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
2. Whats your philosophy on life?
3. Would you have my back in a fight?
4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
5. What is your favorite memory of us?
6. Would you give me a kidney?
7. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
9. Can we get together and make a cake?
10. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?
11. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
12. Do you think I'm a good person?
13. Would you drive across country with me?
14. Do you think I'm attractive?
15. If you could change anything about me, would you?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
18. Would you go on a date with me if i asked you?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Will you repost this so i can fill it out for you?

Instant regrettal is something im getting used to. I act far too rashly sometimes without thinking of the consequences. You would think i would learn, but although i get scared and think of ways to redeem myself from certain situations i often wonder if its a good thing i did it.

I regret so many things this past year and i need to start fixing those things, it can be done, it means cutting certain people out of my life which will be hard but theres no other way. It means stopping people relying on me because my advice isnt all that! in fact its from my point of view that alot of what i do is self motivated. Im not that ashamed to admit that, everyone has their own agenda. 

Amy ... YOUR MY WIFE NOW!

I am delighted to say i am GOING HOME ON MONDAY.

Im really pleased i can get back this early as well, i havent enjoyed myself as much as i hoped this summer. I mean ive had good times but many people have changed and are very difficult to rekindle old bonds with. Plus i have been strapped for cash so avent really been able to travel around and see friends and so on. I guess i have had a nice time, but i am ready to leave.
Im kinda sad as well as i have lost Mike as a close friend, well i have lost him altogether as a friend actually becuase his wallah of a fiance has told him hes a naughty boy for talking to me, and he must not anymore. So brave mikey has decided to drop me for that arsehole. I dont even care anymore, i have held my tongue for long enough about that two faced cow. I tried to get along with her for his sake and then she ripped me to pieces so she can get fucked, i dont even see her problem i am not after her boyfriend, and i am not after her house, i am not after her friends all i wanted was to hang out with my best mate, and if he wants to be with her and can just forget me like that, he can get fucked too. I feel so sorry for him.
Im furious, in case you cant tell.

I have been on the blower to London and have my job back in the old pub which is great because im skint beans! I also have my lovely house to return to and lots of things to buy and decorate, im all excited. I am however NOT looking forward to seeing lennon. Well i am and im not, its his birthday this week or next week so yeah i have him a gift, but im very scared of seeing him in case i lok at him and i havent chnaged my feelings about him at all. I think i have, i hope i have. Damn it. I better had of becuase he is no good for me.

Im sad that i cant get to most people to say goodbye properly, but im working Friday, Saturday and Sunday then i leave about 10am on Monday, so i have no time to get around but let me say here to those i have spent this summer with and got along with. LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU and all that shite.
Im due in work in an hour or so and really cant be arsed, its so DULL ive finished about 4 books on those shifts, in fact i am reading the most recent Harry Potter book, just because its huge. Ive read it like 3 times already anyway, but what the smeg.

Johnnie and Andy are coming to collect me on Monday and then im stuck in a car fro 6 hours with 2 blokes :'( heheh it should be quite fun, but ive insisted on stopping at services if i must wee wee, i hate long journeys.

My claddagh ring now has no meaning. Im sorely tempted to return it to Mike as he has destroyed it.

Today is the funeral of Spencer, the poor 3 year old who was killed by a van the other week, my cousin is attending while i look after her children, its all so sad. Three years of age? R.I.P x x x x x x x